Summer’s Over
I write this today on the 17th of August. School is starting for people around me but I never have to do that shit again. Unless I wanted to, but I highly doubt it. GCSC and IU put me through enough to make me realize that Youtube is my favorite instructor. It’s a sunny day in Gary, Indiana and I’m currently contemplating what’s next for me. I never been the type to compare myself to others in this journey called life. What’s meant for them might not be meant for you and even if it is, it may not be your time. And even still, you never know what a person goes through to achieve the accomplishments they do. With that being said, running a business seems to be in the cards for me. I like the freedom it comes with. While a lot of my friends are tied down to restrictive schedules with varying amounts of free time, I can set my own hours and do whatever I want. When they have to request time off for vacation, I can explore the country through videography and have my client foot the bill. If done right with discipline, it can be the dream. However, without it can turn into a nightmare. Not having a formal job makes things not only challenging but risky as well. The safety net is completely gone and sometimes I get scared admittedly. When more money comes out than is coming in, it gets very depressing. I still have that fear that not enough clients will book to pay my bills, or that I’ll fall off and nobody will care about me anymore. I hate burning out so I try to have a healthy balance of uptime and downtime but too much of either leads to all sorts of bad things. My one biggest fear is that I fall out of love with my craft after putting years of blood, sweat, and tears into it. There is no plan B at this point, Plan A has to work.
Apart from that though, after taking a few trips (literally and figuratively) I fully believe that summer was not meant to be a full blown celebration for me this year like it usually is. I’m not a kid anymore and this summer showed me that. There is no classroom camaraderie to use as an excuse for why I’m not doing enough. The world expects me to act a certain way so it’s time to act like it. Hence the start of my very own website.
What I intend to use the website for is a one-stop shop for everything about me and my business. You can check out my portfolio, book all different types of services, listen to music, and even read about what’s going on in my life. This is really just the first step of taking my business to the next level. I can’t keep treating this shit like a hobby anymore, its time to take off.